Monastic March is underway and Michelle and I are starting to feel good things when we are together. No wild sex obviously, because that’s the whole point – but we have been kissing and fooling around sometimes (even with some teasing fellatio to get me horny), and there’s a sublimated passion and desire that would not normally be there after five day if it was just me in denial, and not both of us.
Basically, knowing you cannot do something is kinda sexier than simply not doing it. And I am finding the mutuality of it very appealing and refreshing.
That’s when we are together, anyway. But as I said, it’s going to be a lonely month. Quite often we’re too busy and not getting the chance to talk or see each other much. I go to be with her, and catch a glimpse of her back as she’s getting changed, and then a minute later she’s fully clothed and out the door, to a meeting, or a girl’s night out, like last night.
Soon she’s going to be taking trips away, too. We haven’t had to deal with that in a long time.
I love Michelle’s back. At the moment those little glimpses of it symbolize all I could be having that I am not having. So now I just focus on the back.